It seems as if my personal history keeps coming to bite me in the ass.
My mother has once AGAIN been arrested. Fucking, she must realy not give a shit about me. I told her a few days ago, if she loved me, she would not drink anymore. and she promised me. She fucking PROMISED ME! And here we go again. This may very well be my last journal or ANY activity on DA until February 22nd, 2005.

Here is my guess on how this is going to go down.

Tomorrow i will be at school, it will most likely be 3rd period. The police will be at the school, waiting to cuff me and take me to PCC(Polinksy Childrens Center)
This is where i will be spending about 3 months, give or take a few weeks.
Then, i will be taken from there to a group home, more then likely it will be NA(New Alternitives) and Mostly likely NA18 in Chula Vista. I will spend nearly 5 months there.
Then. i will be transfered to another group home. and i will spend the remainder of my time there.
Then i will be 18, and i can just walk right out the door.
Ashley, I hope this wont affect our relationship. I realy hope it wont. If i lose you to this, I WILL die. I will have nothing to live for. I am never going to forgive my mom for this. this will be her third time doing this to me. I will NEVER forgive her.
Anyways. Thank you all that have been there for emotional support, and/or artistic support.

I love you Ashley Josephine Preadmore!